Oh this is freaking hard. These are not the circumstances I wanted to leave in. I feel helpless and I feel like even though I am physically safe from him, he still has control over me. I can’t go anywhere because my car is still there with him. I still don’t have a cell phone. I am temporarily staying with his aunt right down the road, though I don’t know how long this will last with the family drama his sister is brewing up. I want my own bed, I want my dogs, I want to be in my own home. I hate this, its like I have to suffer either way. Somethings got to give. But I will be in a safe bed tonight and for that I am thankful.