Christmas Eve Gift

So I suppose the “Christmas” spirit got me today. It’s funny how some stupid traditions can do that. I’m not going to lie, I have been a negative Nancy for several days now. Between crying, drowning my sorrows in chocolate cake and sleeping as much as possible, I had made up my mind not to even go to my his family Christmas party tonight. I have every reason not to. My daughter won’t be there and my heart is broken because of it. I could not afford to buy anyone presents this year including my step children who will be there. I wasn’t even sure they wanted me there because of the slashed tire drama from last week, and I certainly don’t want to stand beside him faking the happy couple. But, here is what happened. His family has this little tradition they call “Christmas Eve Gift”. They’ve been doing it for way longer than the thirteen years I’ve been a part of the family. Basically you call someone or when they call you on Christmas Eve, whoever says “Christmas Eve Gift” first is supposed to buy the other person and extra gift. Now no one actually does the gift part, it’s really about the game. This family is super competitive and some of them even start calling at midnight. Well I have been “got” four times this morning and having gotten six of them…so far. It’s on, I’m in full on competitive mode. Regardless of the problems I deal with behind closed doors and the judgments and family drama I have had to deal with. They are still my family too and I love them. My mother and father in law have been happily married since they were 18. I have ten nieces and nephews on his side and my stepchildren, whom I love very much. This will be the last Christmas I spend with them before I leave (they don’t know this). It his heartbreaking and I will miss them so much. So today I will not concentrate on the  reasons I have not to celebrate the holiday, instead I will embrace the reasons I do. I will cherish the time I have left with people I love. By the way…Christmas Eve Gift! 🙂


2 thoughts on “Christmas Eve Gift

  1. DotedOn says:

    Merry Christmas 🙂

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  2. Wishing you much LOVE in the times spent with your family❤️

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